I don't know if any of you still follow this blog, or even give rat's ass about anything I have to say. But I have had a disturbingly lot going on in the 7 months, including but not limited to, the loss of my crappy job, the loss of my house, severe depression, anger, fear and sadness.
Blogging does help me deal with depression, and while thought about it a dozen times, I couldn't bring myself to write about it. Indeed, thoughts of self destruction took precedence. I had it planned, even managed to get rid of the wife for a few days to do it. My plan was simple. A sharp knife across the throat would have take care of it.
So. Why didn't I do it?
I was watching tv, my inability to cope with my life had me try to find escape wherever I could. I descended into the tv and video games. Much to my wife's disgust. Anyways, while I was watching, I saw a commercial for mantherapy.org.au and I learnt a few things. I'm in the second most at risk age group in Australia. My circumstances are the common reasons within that demographic.
I spoke to people by phone, and got my shit straightened out, more or less, because I'm still here.
Still breathing; and yeah, still smoking. It helps me cope.
So I'm up late tonight, smoking too much and watching Die Welle (The Wave). The Wave is based, loosely, on a genuine experiment by a high school teacher about fascism. He used his class as a test group. This German film is scarier, and more disturbing than the original which ran as an after school special on tv when I was a kid. Its worth watching.
So, what's upcoming in Torggil's World?
I'm starting a new job in a few weeks. Followers of this blog will know I've done it before. I'm going back to taxi driving. This time in Townsville.
More than just the town the Powerpuff team rescues on that show, It's actually a real city, in tropical north Queensland. So I may change the name of the Blog to Torggil's Nights, or something. I'm going to try to do something on it every week.
When the Eddard game starts back up, I hope to post more adventures as well.
Also, the Australian Federal Election is coming up. I know I have a take or two on that.
So hang ten everyone. As soon as this move is over, I'll be back. Regularly, I hope.